not Belly,Legs & Thighs, more like Bored, Lonely & Tired..

Just got back from Indo.. and as usual i'm experiencing the lag & the sudden loneliness. When i opened my front door, i felt as though time has stopped & i was walking in a haze. Every lil nice thing that i experienced back home become a distant memory. I'm in this empty room again...

I read somewhere that loneliness kills..

if that' so i'll be doomed since i've been having it for a long time

wah,sih chocolatea! Kasihan dong.
It will pass.
Its always that way when coming back from home or from travel .I actually really like the feeling of being disconnected from it all.It gives me a valid excuse for my otherwise inexusable behaviour!!!LOL.

i really hope so Ena..

Since to be back home is the only cure.

btw inexcusable behaviour hmm?? such as...??

You gotta bounce Chocko, bounce back up again. how can anyone be lonely in this crowded planet?

Just say Hi....

choco, I'm the person that really scare with the lonely I don't wanna feel lonely..so everytime I always looking for something that make me happy..

I don't wanna home if I knew that there's no one in home..I don't wanna sleep if there's no one beside me..
sometimes I felt that the loneliness will killing me..
like Breatney's song; my loneliness is killing me..kiling me

Hey Jokie, how can you be lonely with me as your friend?

We can sleep together, and if you say no sex, then there is no sex. I am in control.

DOWN SAUSAGE, DOWN DOWN DOWN. Oh no......

Hi......

I'm personally like Ena. Sometimes I just want to be alone and disconected from everything. Like you say PB, the planet is crowded, the buzzing sounds kinda annoying some times.

Anyway, welcome back Choco babe! It's nice to have you again here.

Jokie!! that's exactly how i feel.. alot of times i just wander around the city with no real purpose ..just to be in the crowd, seeing people & knowing that there are life outside. Coz i just dnt want to be home by myself..

PB might have seen the weird woman wandering up & down townhall station with ph number & these words printed behind her shirt: take me home..

Luna.. i wished i have a lil bit of you in me.. *rubbing hard!*

anyways enough moaning from me.... how's everyone? and how're your dudes/dudettes?

So meet me for a coffee.

I actualy listen far better than I can talk, and whilst I dont make the best friend in the world, I try my best.

Call me on 0410 245 342

Choco sist' you don't have to be lonely we're here always for you....yep I hate loneliness, sometimes it killing me softly.......Laluna dear perhaps I call you in a minute.....are at home babe??

Oh he posted his number, SMS's will be flying tonight!

Yes, I'm at home dear, a bit busy in the moment, but let me call you tonight okay. Becoz I have to go take care some matters first.
LOL! Talking about phonecalls, someone just messaged me about phone call incidents. Honey baby , you know is you I'm talking, I'm sorry okay?! I shouldn't laugh about it, but hey at least he does know your number, and I don't think he call you by mistake, he just...you know..."jual mahal" LOL!

You are still here Oil Dude???

yes, the usual suspects have been smsing

he..he..he..PB, so long time I'm waiting for you and sleep together

actually..there're alots of ways, how to get lost the loneliness...
and I'm sure that you're the person who really know what you want in your life
keep funky, cheerss and keep smiling

so sad, because French was lost last night..
no Zidane no win in French...

but..I'm happy, Coz Zidane still as the best player in world cup 2006..
huhhh..I love your bald

Yeah, I feel that BLT today...only some few people can look it in through my eyes...I am glad that there's still true friends around and care about me.

Jokie: you are right about what you said before, although i've never met any of you but funnily you guys've made my day..just by reading your postings. Btw did you put any soccer bet?

PB: regretting posting your number now? .. (ya know once it's in my phone memory it wont go away)

Dili: maybe you should list your number too.. so that PB can share the phonecall load b/n the 2 of you! hows the diagnosis btw, all well?

MT, Luna, Ruby : big big hugs girls!

Ruby if you have BLT, feel free to pour your heart out, you can always email me ..

At work
With other people
At times
On the outside

I look fine
I seem fine
I feel pretty good
I have a positive attitude...

But inside, alone, I carry dark & heavy thoughts --
fleeting thoughts of suicide.
The words cannot convey,
the feelings, the pain

Somehow I ignore them --
for a while, perhaps --
a long while, all day, or many days --
figure it will go away -- ignore
It's automatically not even recognized mentally.

I go back
forcing myself
forcing day to day, week to week,
contact with people and life
My sorrow is hidden,
My anguish contained.
I push forward;
I feel like dying.
I tell no one.
No one knows how I feel..

Hey I dont mind who has my number....

very sad poem Ruby................

I'm sure many have felt suicidal before, but never ever carry on such thought.

:rolleyes: who am i to say this right?.. but i'm going to spit it out anyway, if it's going to make anyone feel better!

if you ever reach that low point in your life, just give this a thought.., tomorrow morning the sun is going to rise.. wouldn't you want to see it once again? wouldn't it be a waste to know that it's going to be the last time you're going to see it? go to the beach & watch it.

See how beautiful it is, and on your way back home, see the buzzing of ppl starting their day, the energy, the life, the smell of sea & fish&chips... take a deep breath, close your eyes & seep it all in (not while you're driving though, coz you might as well die)

fair enuff if you don't like the Sun, think of something else precious that you wouldnt want to miss out.. (ie: never ever to have KFC again in your life??? scary...)

This blue planet, it maybe a lonely place, but it's beautiful. its where all the wonders are. Maybe.. just maybe, we are the few lucky ones out of the zillions to be born as human to witness such wonder. Even us feeling emotional pain is some sort of magic dont you think?.. no other animals could feel such extended emotion or beauty(some may disagree)..

Hey i don't mind people giving out numbers too

Pssst...tell me who's the usual suspects?

Ruby babe...stop with the poems! Please...*smooch*

Choco babe, big big hugs for you too... So when can i get your number?

Thanks Choco

I've been thinking what I wouldn't wanna miss out :

Dr. Becker show on tv

PB and Dilli fight in JakChat